25 and The Best Gift

Been through so many unexpected, hard, things in life for the past several months, has made me become such a zero expectation human. I can’t be more ready to face the worst scenario in every aspect in my life. My job, my love life, my family. I feel like I’m gonna be okay if there’s something which is not really good happen on them, and be more okay if actually things that happens are good. My job is trying to make it good, but I don’t mind if the results aren’t that good. I call it destiny. For the sake of my health, mind and body, I do not expect anything, anymore. Anything. And life just be greater and easier to live, trust me.

And on that day I turned 25. One or two night before the day, Aldy said that it was the lowest point on him, that he couldn’t propose me right on my birthday. The payment from one of his biggest client hasn’t been done. And the spending of the 40 days pray of his grand mother’s left was just too much, he also contributed to it. Very wisely I said that my birthday is a happy day for me, but the day he propose me will be one of the beautiful day in my life, and it doesn’t always need to happen on the same day. I’m good at zero expecting, as I’ve said before.

I arrived at my office that morning and found my table had been decorated. Such a cute beginning, I thought. Half an hour later all of my friends came to me with two cakes and a gift (from Teh Dwi). That actually the first time my birthday were celebrated by quite lot of friends in my office. Usually the celebration only included my cubicle friends. We took some photos and shared the cake. Oh and I just remembered that usually Aldy came too to gave me surprises. The first, and the third years we celebrated my birthday at my office. On the second year I was sick that he gave me surprise in front of my boarding house. This year is the fourth year, and he’s not coming, I thought. But I’d asked him to have dinner with me in Dago Pakar. Well at least we would have a time to spend together on my birthday. Basicly I’m not a big-surprise fan.

After office hour, I went to Cafe Halaman where Aldy had a meeting with his colleagues. It was almost finished, and he went to pay the bill. He came back and some minutes later a waiter came and said there was something he need to ask Aldy. He went away again and came back, saying there was an error in his debit payment. Suddenly the music on the cafe played a birthday song, and my reflected action was, “what was that?”, a waiter came to my table bringing a pancake with an ice cream and chocolate sauce written “Happy Birthday Dinda”. Oh, that was just unpredictable, I must say.

The meeting was finally over and we decided to have dinner in Sierra. Teh Dwi recommended the restaurant because of  its good meal, affordable price, and magnificent view. And yes, I agree to her! I brought the gift from Teh Dwi and opened it there. “Here’s the gift from Teh Dwi,” I said to Aldy. “We’ll buy your gift tomorrow, ok?” he said to me. Did he really mean “we”? It must be a different gift, I thought, because “we” should buy it together. But what would it be? I was wondering. We finished our meal and I went to the spot where I could see that very sentimental view of Bandung. What a very breathtaking view. I went back to my table and back to my confuse. “Where are we going tomorrow?”. “Around Pasir Kaliki or maybe Saritem,”.

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The Corrs – All The Love In The World

Found this song from my friend’s father’s playlist. Thought I often heard this song when I was a kid and… just realized how amazing the lyric is.

I’m not looking for someone to talk to
I’ve got my friend, I’m more than O.K.
I’ve got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it’s not all they say
Still I believe (I’m missing) I’m missing something real
I need someone who really sees me…

(Don’t wanna wake…) Don’t wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you’ll walk through my door
All I need is to know it’s for sure
Then I’ll give… all the love in the world

I’ve often wondered if love’s an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can’t criticize it
I have no hesitation
My imagination just stole me away
(Still…) Still I believe
(I’m missing) I’m missing something real
I need someone who really sees me…

(Don’t wanna wake…) Don’t wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you’ll walk through my door
All I need is to know it’s for sure
Then I’ll give… all the love in the world

Love’s for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I’m only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me…

(Don’t wanna wake…) And i won’t wake up alone anymore
Still believing you’ll walk through my door
You’ll reach for me and I’ll know it’s for sure
Then I’ll give all the love in the world
(Don’t wanna wake up alone anymore…)

Naked Kitchen

Finished watching the last 5 parts of this movie last night. Fyi, I watched the early parts months ago, and quite hard to find a ‘proper’ time to continue watch this on my pc 😛

Well, I should say that this is another movie that made me can’t wait to get married, lol, after A Moment to Remember. Eventhough, yaa, the first scene successfully shocked me, but I just like the way this movie illustrates the sweet side of a marriage life. Cute, sweet, spoiling, and teasing Ahn Moo Rae; A patient, sometimes cool, lovable husband; and the ..okay, again, teasing, cool Park Du Re. I meant, I like the way the two of them, Ahn Moo Rae and her husband loving each other. Cute, for god’s sake!

But the ending was totally disappointing to me. Hard to understood it for the 1st time, but I heard Ahn Moo Rae spilled out “how can you do this? we’ve already divorced for few months,”. Why they should have divorced? Just because a man who suddenly had come to help the husband’s bussiness. Instead, he finally went back to France, and I think they actually could continue their life happily, without any disturbing things anymore.

Seems I am the one who gets panic here. Well, at least that’s what I would do if such things happen to me 😉

Overall, I like this movie, a lot.

I Took It Seriously

I think that was the first time, eh?

Well, how do you think a thirteen year old girl will react if a twenty-something year old man says something such “You’ll be always in the deepest of my heart”?

Yes, I took it seriously. All with those charismatic, sincerely smiles, and the best man’s attitude ever.

Several weeks ago I met that guy on facebook, since it’s been a long time, maybe about six or seven years I didn’t meet him.

“Is this really you?” he asked.

“Yea it’s me, and whooa, are you married now?” he didn’t answer it and just talked about something elses.

I took a look at his album and found so many pictures of him with his baby.

Mister, you know something? I’ve already known what kind of daddy you’ll be since first I met you.

A Moment to Remember

Have just finished watching A Moment to Remember. You know what I like most from this movie? Yes, the theme. Marriage. Great. Inspirrrrational! For example, at an early part, the first day after the wedding, I just like the way Chul Soo bring Su Jin to the room. Other example, at part 11, actually I really want to embed the video here but somehow I feel it would be unethiced. Okay, first, I found such a scene that made my heart yelled Gosh, I have never thought someone can pose like that before!, again, inspirrrrational! Second, I love the dialog when they posed like that, somekind of eheuheuuww..especially “you mean in and out?” words that had made me burst into shy laughs and rewatched it for some times. Oh I feel like a perv :”>, but seriously, this is not as dirty as you think, just watch it and.. God I wanna get married, lmao

I almost forgot that some friends of mine recommended me this movie because I like sad mellow movie. Wait.. I didn’t even drop any tears while watching this. I felt so heartless. I often cry even it’s such a not so sad movie, but.. hmm, did I loose my sensivity or something like that? Instead, I only focus on their marriage romantic life and how manly Chul Soo was.

Man, I think I’m too excited writing this. Someday I will feel this as a trashy post when I read back again.


Sher. Sharon.

How’s your life? Have you done the test yet? Does your father help you in studying at home? Do you play well? Does your father take you in a picnic? Does he still carry you to to the school every morning?

My Sherry.

I wouldn’t ignore you. I would never. It’s all just because our destiny said that I had to be born far later and better-welfared than your father so I couldn’t grow you inside my belly and pop you out.

It doesn’t matter, you’re still and always be my little gaining star…


Picture by Ricardo Carreon